B2: So confused and so tired

Why do some people come into ur life so suddenly and become a part of it without whom it becomes difficult imagining the world? It becomes hard breathing?

Why do they become so important that the people that were there since the beginning of ur life seem less important to u? Sometimes i wish i this wudnt have happened to me. I wish no one wud have ever come to change my life. Bcoz now that i have that extremely important person, i lost the trust of my family. Lost so many things i used to boast of having. Got my new mobile bit lost that freedom.

Why is it that the promise i made to myself all those yrs ago, never to make my family cry for any guy, was broken by me when that one person came? Why did i do that?

Cried yesterday night in the thought of what furure might hold for me again. I did tell that i slept late and that i wasn't feeling well. Didn't say that i cried or the reason for not feeling well.

They are right. Never give anyome ur strings to make u dance the way they want. But i have and i don't know how to take those strings back. Sometimes i feel suffocated even talking to him. Bcoz sometimes i blame him for everyrhing i m going through. For taking away my family's trust on me. And just the next sec i blame myself for even thinking such a rubbish thing.

I think how can he be so selfish to not see my sufferings and do something abt it. And then i think how selfish am i being for thinking something like that abt the person who made me happy like never before.

I feel so exhausted. So confused.