B3: what shud i write?

There are just so many things i wanna say. But whenever i open this page and try to write everything vanishes.

I think my head will explode bcoz it was just a slight headache but the things going on in my jead are making it worse.

All my life, i waited for one person. Just one person who wud look at me like i am something.. something special. Something they neveer wants to lose. Something beautiful. Something worth while.

And now that i have that one person, idk what next. Idk what to do. How to keep that person and balance all the other things.

Everyone just gived me ultimatums. My friends family. They say choose us or choose him. How can i choose bw hom and them. Bw heart and soul. Bw the reason to live and life itself.

I know this is wrong. It's like drugs. U know it's wrong. It's injurious and it will kill u, not before it takes away everything from u. But u still do it. Bcoz u can't stop. U don't know how to.

M hopeless.

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  1. Looking for myself.....28 October 2017 at 10:01

    Hope - One thing that makes right. Hope - One thing that will keep you right. I know my comments are even more hopeless and useless than I am, but, My dear friend. YOU ARE NOT HOPELESS.... You can make a balance.. You can.... U need to talk to that person... U need to talk to him..... AND... headaches.... M sorry!! :-/

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    1. Mohini29 October 2017 at 01:24

      U know their was an incident with him nd headache. I had a really bad headache and he told me to study. And then i msgd him i was going to rest for a while coz i have a headache and then just in a few min he texted me and said why r u not studying. I told u to study but u dont listen. He didnt read that msgs abt the headache and started saying i dont listen. My head was banging and i just needed to sleep but then all i cud do was say okay. I asked him if he read the earlier msgs. He said no.

      And i said dont. Read them later go study for now. Bcoz i didnt want him to feel guilty that he didnt even know how badly i needed comforting.

      If i cudnt say such a simple thing to him then coz i was scared he might get hurt how will i say such a big thing? Idk how to.

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    2. Mohini29 October 2017 at 01:25

      U know their was an incident with him nd headache. I had a really bad headache and he told me to study. And then i msgd him i was going to rest for a while coz i have a headache and then just in a few min he texted me and said why r u not studying. I told u to study but u dont listen. He didnt read that msgs abt the headache and started saying i dont listen. My head was banging and i just needed to sleep but then all i cud do was say okay. I asked him if he read the earlier msgs. He said no.

      And i said dont. Read them later go study for now. Bcoz i didnt want him to feel guilty that he didnt even know how badly i needed comforting.

      If i cudnt say such a simple thing to him then coz i was scared he might get hurt how will i say such a big thing? Idk how to.

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  2. Looking for myself.....29 October 2017 at 02:04

    Nothing can help u unless u gather sm courage.... Trust me... Wont help... If u need me to talk to the lerson... Sbt ath.. feel free... I know may not be a gud idea... But worth a try... M sorry... Who m i to say ath to u.... M sorry.... No matter ehat... I can keep noone happy

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